Sammul’s Log: October 27th, 2018
Have you ever had a dry spell?
A time in your life where you are just sapped out of energy, or inspiration, or something you learn to count on.
It’s like no matter how you organize life, or how you manage your time, you never find the ability to actually bring a result and be happy about it.
I have a million and one things going on in life.
I’m directing a play
I’m in a play
I just got a promotion at work (so more hours and responsibility)
I’m moving out
I’m working to start an improv group
I also want to keep up with writing and studying in downtime. Writing blogs, and screenplays.
And with all of this going on, It’s coming into November.
All of these things are going to be in effect or concluded by mid-December.
So I have a month and a half to see all of these things through.
All in all, I have a lot to do in a small about of time.
Yet I find myself waking up in the morning, and barely finding a valid reason to get up and get work done on these projects. Being proactive so I don’t dig myself into a hole that falls in on itself.
My question to myself is what’s wrong?
I like the place I work, and I’m thankful for a promotion.
I love to direct, especially a classic play like It’s a Wonderful Life
I’ve wanted to start an improv group since this spring, so what is wrong?
I’ve wanted to get my own living space for a long time as well, and it’s just taken a long time to come to fruition.
Writing and studying is such a fulfilling pastime when I’m intentional about it.
Everything that I’m doing, is stuff that I want to be doing.
Is it possible that even if you love what you do, too much of it becomes toxic?
The very event of being 100% engaged in every project you make for yourself just burns you out before you even begin.
Maybe that’s a good takeaway. Even if you love something you need to restrain yourself from it sometimes. Learn to find a healthy appetite for it.
This applies to lots of things, now that I think about it.
All things in moderation, I suppose. Loving something doesn’t make it an unending pool of goodness.
Learn to take the good with the bad, and accept that some days just aren’t good ones.
Mourning is a very real thing, resting is important, taking time away from thing things you constantly surround yourself with keep you from self-destructing. Even if you think those things could never turn on you to become hazardous.
They can, and they will if you don’t keep them in moderation.
It is possible to OD on a good thing.